Monday, December 30, 2013

Why Mr. Anderson?

Why is it so hard to be motivated?
Why does it feel good to pursue tiny ego clashes?
Why is it easier to wallow in past pain and sadness?
How do we acknowledge the present state of being and move forward?
Why is it easier to be lazy and stubborn?
Why is it tough to forgive and forget?

The Voice:
Yeah, I fought with a friend or family member. Wasn't my fault entirely. Let him or her apologize or compromise.
Yeah, I have this great idea which I think will click. But I don't have the time or people to help me with that now.
Yeah, I want to finish this new book. Or maybe even work on that proposal. But there is a new episode of Broadchurch downloaded. Lets finish that off and then maybe check Facebook a bit or StumbleUpon and then we can work on other stuff. Oh crap, it is already 12:30 AM now. How time flies. Lets finish the work tomorrow. 
Yeah, I am a bit low and sad today. I don't feel like hitting the gym or doing anything right now.


Each one has his or her own comfort zone for everything. A zone that is not easy to come out of. Not easy, but not impossible. One needs to be constantly reminded and pushed to come out of the zone, lest we settle more comfortably into it. The force of it pulling you back into its nucleus is far greater than even gravity perhaps. We need that escape velocity (no reference here to RaGa) to break free of its reach.

But why should I do it? What do you know about I am feeling? Who are you to tell?
Only you can answer the questions you pose. It is ok to feel low. It is ok to feel sad. It is ok to cry. It is ok to get angry. It is ok to be lazy, to indulge. It is ok to shout at the top of your voice and hurl expletives. What is NOT ok is to be in that state infinitely, or for prolonged periods at least. It is just offsetting, draining, taxing to yourself and others around you and you lose yourself in the process.
Each time that little pesky voice in the head rises, shake your head hard, like a wet dog drying itself of water and subdue it. Tell yourself "Down you little turd! I am not listening to you. I need to go to a different place". So you are in a pretty crappy state. Ask yourself what you would advice someone else if they were in the same situation. Ask yourself what brought you into that state and what must be done now.
If you have friends to whip your backside each time you slip into the vortex, even better.
It is never easy. But as long as you acknowledge that you are lazy/adamant/sad/hopeless/angry/whatever and you want to change it, that is half the battle won. The other half is in bringing about that change.
Try it once, fail, try it again. Push. Motivate. Make it a habit.
Try power yoga. Dress up strongly. Strike a kickass pose. Show the finger. Workout. Blast the stereo. Feel the energy.
Discover what clicks for you.
There are so many things that you can be doing, so many people you can be meeting, that you can use your energy on instead of fretting it away.

Who are you, panda?
I AM PO.

May the Force be with you.